jealousy
well i guess its kinda natural to feel jealous sometimes. like she gets betta marks, she is prettier, she can draw betta, she got sth and you didn't (like a lollipop), and many other silly or serious things. and you feel all squirmy and funny inside cos you don't like it. nobody does.
but does it have to show? could the person help it? she can't fail her tests on purpose. she can't give up drawing. and sometimes she can't help that she's got something you don't. but still the squirm takes over and you get angry.
over what?
and so your emotions take over and before you know it, you're jumping at her bones, faulting her every move, snapping at her, and blah. you're trying to put her down. to make yourself feel betta.
well then, is it working?
putting others down doesn't mean you're improving. in fact, you're detioriating. and so you make her unhappy but on the other hand you're not getting A1s or lollipops either. so what's the point?
she may have things you don't, but surely everyone has their ups and downs. everyone has their own special talents and personalities that make us all unique. no one has everything. no one can.
i think the best is still to reflect on what she has and you don't. and then try to improve yourself. you can't live your life trying to bring others down. you gotta give yourself some spunk and work upwards. and then you can feel betta and be proud of it.
and best of all, the squirm goes away. :0)
